Nicky Douglas.

Six weeks till I am home in my bonnie homeland. How much I love Spain is incomparable to how much I love Scotland. La tierra de mi corazón.

Why does it take something a 15 year old Navarro says to make me open my eyes and start appreciating life? Thanks so so much Alain, you’ve actually made me realise something so simple, that I ought to have had drilled into my skull years ago.

I am going to make the absolute MOST of my nine days back in Scotland.

Seven weeks and two days to go. I’m sure it seems like little time but, considering this is my first time away from my family, it’s like a lifetime. I am so so in need of a hug from someone who knows everything about me and who would do anything for me and, right now, the only person in the world I want to be with is my mum.

I’m having an amazing time here, but I know now how much hurt can be caused from not having a proper goodbye at an airport. I AM SO EXCITED TO COME HOME!

I just know that she’s going to be so proud of me for not letting it beat me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCeMnBC4UVQ&feature=PlayList&p=CEF5A2936AA9DE89&index=43

I keep feeling like I’m letting myself down, and all I’m doing is living. I think that when I’m in her arms again, everything will be fine, because sometimes I question if I am actually living not having her here with me.

I phoned her the other night and cried in the locutorio, as I  was so happy just to hear her voice- I know she would get me out of this cycle, like she has done so many times before. She told me she was scared she’d have to collect me.

I share the same fear.

http://vimeo.com/5258869